shuryoinai: (please: tell me more.)
Makoto Kuzunoha ([personal profile] shuryoinai) wrote2014-02-18 04:16 pm

001. fill this cup. // open post.




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larue: (they stare me / while i stare at you)

[personal profile] larue 2014-03-09 10:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ He's glancing over at Makoto now, and what the geist says is probably the first thing that makes him smile even if he still looks and feels like a wreck.

Walking back and sinking down beside the other man, he sighs. ]


What Brianna said, hurt. [ He's lookong down at his hands as he says this. ] I thought that... since she's essentially his daughter -- she'd get it, you know? [ He's pressing his lips together a moment as he arranges the things he wants to say in his head and tries to align them as much as possible with what he feels in his heart.

Sadly, the pieces aren't coming up right. And there's a pained look that crosses Josh's features, but he swallows it down and breathes out. ]


She told me there are no perfect friendships. And... [ breathe in, breathe out, Josh, no one's rushing you ] She's right.

[ He turns his gaze to Makoto, tries for a smile that says he agrees, but it stops short of his eyes. ]

It's not a perfect friendship. [ But the intensity of it... ] We just... maybe it's just me. You know him better. But he knows my tells, and I'm good with that. Even in the beginning, he'd send these random, weirdly psychic-ish messages and I'd be okay with them. They didn't freak me out. They never felt like he was intruding.

Or maybe I just that way because... Sin-Eater, right? Gotta get used to the constant presence of your geist. I mean, he used to be a Bladian. And sure, he doesn't have a bloodsinger taking up space in the attic, but he does have Death.

[ He hangs his head again. He's sorry, Makoto. He hedges deliberately when he's still working around the problem. ]
larue: (068 »)

[personal profile] larue 2014-03-09 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Goddamnit. Why is this so hard.

He takes the cigarette. Accepts the light.

And then, softly, with a tone of quiet hurt: ]
We click.

[ He takes a puff. ]

And I lied because I had this... weird feeling [ he soinds pretty choked up ] that she might tell me not to.

[ He takes a second drag. Exhales. ] I don't even know why I thought that. But when she took my answer for what it was, I was relieved.
larue: (my pride in the ground)

[personal profile] larue 2014-03-09 02:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[ And this is head cradled back in his hands because his mind is toggling between answers that are all true -- although one hold more weight to him than the others. ]
larue: (it's only a crime if I get caught)

[personal profile] larue 2014-03-09 03:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ And he feels... so terribly guilty for this. ]

She's a good friend and she's his daughter.

[ He worries at his upper lip, and then: ] But I'm a selfish asshole and I just wanted to see and spend time him, screw everything else.

[ Shutting his eyes now, and knocking his head back against the wall. He doesn't want to think on the logic behind how he feels. The justifications that don't feel like justifications at all. ]
larue: (your vintage misery)

[personal profile] larue 2014-03-09 03:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Opening his eyes now, the look in them hard, and hurt, and yes... just a little bit resentful. ]

Stanley knew before me. [ A breath. ] And since Kaz lives here, and the kid's incredibly perceptive, I think it's safe to say that he probably knows as well.

[ He doesn't want to feel like this. He doesn't want to feel so frustrated that he'd been walking around utterly clueless over Hikaru's behavior all because--

He's looking back at that wall now. And there's a twist in his chest as he whispers, even if he knows that with Makoto's Boneyard of Stillness in place, no one but the two of them will hear. ]
Couldn't he have just told me. I thought we were good.

[ It's not a question. ]
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[personal profile] larue 2014-03-09 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ And just as he looks like he's about to protest and say something:

Wide eyes. Lips parting as realization dawns and the pieces finally click into place.

This is a shoe. This is a shoe flung hard at this side of the wall separating you from one Josh LaRue, Hikaru Shinta. ]
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[personal profile] larue 2014-03-09 04:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ And this is him standing, fumbling a little because he has just lost one shoe and the parquet floor is surprisingly slippery when you're in a cotton sock. ]

Finish your cigarette. [ Hobbling over to grab his shoe -- no, fuck it -- sitting on the goddamn bed and just getting rid of the other, and then both socks. The pad is a shared space, right? Well, since it's shared space, then he can go pad around barefoot as much as he pleases.

Fucking idiot, Blade King my ass. Perception up to the Wazoo and still dumb as fuck.

Glancing to Makoto now and letting out a huff. ]
Feel free to take the pack. I'll buy you a ream of Black Stones in the morning.

And a favor -- yeah, I'll owe you big -- make sure my nosy blademates stay asleep?

[ Marching towards his door now. He needs to have words with the moron sleeping soundly in ths other room. ]
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[personal profile] larue 2014-03-09 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ And all you hear is Josh opening that door of his, closing it ( click ) with surprising -- and yet efficiently quick -- care. ]