[He doesn't want to feel. He doesn't want this crippling sense of loss, this overpowering grief, this debilitating desperation, this quiet bitterness, this uncompromising desire. He doesn't want any of the other nameless things that lay between the cracks within all of those, and then some.
He knows, logically, what this means. (That he has failed. That he is at the end of his rope, that the rope is on fire and he's going up in smoke with it.)]
I don't know.
[It's quite possible that, ever since they were introduced, Josh has never heard Makoto sound this way (human, on the brink of totally breaking down.)]
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[He doesn't want to feel. He doesn't want this crippling sense of loss, this overpowering grief, this debilitating desperation, this quiet bitterness, this uncompromising desire. He doesn't want any of the other nameless things that lay between the cracks within all of those, and then some.
He knows, logically, what this means. (That he has failed. That he is at the end of his rope, that the rope is on fire and he's going up in smoke with it.)]
I don't know.
[It's quite possible that, ever since they were introduced, Josh has never heard Makoto sound this way (human, on the brink of totally breaking down.)]